Saturday, April 6, 2013

Day 322 - My desire for simplicity is really a corporate policy - The Physical & The Consequence pt1

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For more in-depth context of this series of blog posts, please read day 311

The problem in summary: 

I define a singular focus in my life which I use to justify my tendency to exclude myself from activities that are not linked to potentially making money  - therefore simplifying my life by constraining it to a few time consuming activities that become the pretext for me to avoid dealing with the complexity of life. At the same time believing that this one focus is an enabler for me to excel in one area and secure my place in society. 



The physical and consequence dimensions - The solution

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore my physical body when I get to this place where I allow myself to create single-minded focus in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that having this single-minded uptake of a project makes me justify the abuse I practice on my body, 
for example, when I am not longer able to sit still I force myself to not give into my body wanting to move. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never investigate the nature of my work/activities in how it affects my physical body and overall health.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my responsibility on the narrative of the mind and by doing so I am no longer accountable for the reality I create for myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try moulding my body to my mind's desires, "using" my body as a tool where I neglect all context, just like we do with all of substance on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rather live in scarcity with my physical being to achieve what I defined as a 'peace of mind' by stripping my life of the perceived complexity, than creating a physically comfortable life for myself, and within this I do not realise that this peace of mind that I want to create for myself is an illusion and only protects the way I have programmed myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created consequences where the imbalance of my life has not only affected my physical body but also my monetary situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have never investigated how my neglect of context, when trapping myself in single-minded focus, has created consequences in the world around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that hiding myself in this way, when pursuing my life with single-minded focus where I end up working intensively on one project, has left me ignorant to the future I create for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created polarisation within myself, in how I move in the world therefore protecting my self-interest to not see the suffering and abuse that our current system is causing on earth.
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Friday, April 5, 2013

Day 321 - My desire for simplicity is really a corporate policy - The Reaction pt2

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For more in-depth context of this series of blog posts, please read day 311

The problem in summary: 

I define a singular focus in my life which I use to justify my tendency to exclude myself from activities that are not linked to potentially making money  - therefore simplifying my life by constraining it to a few time consuming activities that become the pretext for me to avoid dealing with the complexity of life. At the same time believing that this one focus is an enabler for me to excel in one area and secure my place in society. 


The reaction dimension - The reward:

If and when I am at the threshold where I want to just hide in a project, I stop and breathe,

I realise that this threshold is where I can change by stopping the belief that I am a victim of the situation and that the situation is bigger than me.

I commit myself to stop making situations in my life bigger than me by believing that situations are static elements without ability to manoeuvre and within this belief I literally 'break' down and cannot see the common sense.

If and when I enter into the state of irritation, I stop and breathe,
I realise that irritation is neither good nor bad, but a wake up call for me to have a close look what I believe I perceive in my life and investigate what happened by walking backwards to see how I got there, rather than moving forward into a mental state of make-belief.

I commit myself to stop running away from irritation and face myself within the irritation head-on.

If and when I believe that the quantity of information or the diversity of tasks I must focus on becomes too much for me, I stop and breathe,
I realise that this is a judgement that is solely my perception, which is not the reality that I encounter - instead I stop creating an overview of all the tasks in my head and focus on each task in order of its priority - rather than standing back and looking at everything I am involved in, which then hits me like a wall - so that I can validate my perception and create fear.

I commit myself to stop judging my life as complex, and stop thoughts that want to quantify my involvement in things to do and places to go.

If and when I become frustrated about my complex life style, I stop and breathe,

I realise that this is just me wanting to hold onto the victim status I have accepted as me.

I commit myself to let go of being a victim by recognising that I no longer hold attachment to this program and the memories from childhood.

If and when I experience myself as defeated, I stop and breathe,

I realise that defeat is me in self-victimisation and I stop defeating myself.
I commit myself to stop battling with myself and stand equal to the situation I am in.

If and when I succumb to fear, I stop and breathe,
I just drop the fear because I have realised profoundly that I use fear to keep myself trapped, by creating a wall behind which lurks the unknown (with the belief that this unknown can only be death) and move on.

I commit myself to not allow myself to enter into fear because I have seen what lies beyond fear - very clearly - and know for fact that I am bigger than the fear that is why i can use it to trap myself in it.
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Day 320 - My desire for simplicity is really a corporate policy - The Reaction pt1

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For more in-depth context of this series of blog posts, please read day 311

The problem in summary: 

I define a singular focus in my life which I use to justify my tendency to exclude myself from activities that are not linked to potentially making money  - therefore simplifying my life by constraining it to a few time consuming activities that become the pretext for me to avoid dealing with the complexity of life. At the same time believing that this one focus is an enabler for me to excel in one area and secure my place in society. 



The reaction dimension - The solution:


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this comfort zone of hiding myself in a project, where I can establish an 'absolute' focus and direction, to avoid becoming frazzled and irritated with myself and my environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have judged when I am irritated as a negative state - a state, I need to get away from, therefore allowing myself to go into my mind and validate my desire to simplify my life, which motivates to make decisions that I believe will take me to a more simplified life, neither looking at longterm consequences, nor critically assessing what impact these changes will have on my immediate environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to situations where I am irritated about the quantity of information that I have to deal with, or the diversity of tasks that I need to focus on, by taking responsibility only with a noticeable, reluctant undertone because I do not manage to accept full-heartedly that I am the creator of this situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with anger and frustration to my 'complex' life style because I still see myself as a victim of circumstances.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with defeat because then I do not have to change as I render the situation that I find myself in bigger than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with fear - where I allow myself to 'use' fear to blind myself from seeing how I have trapped myself in my programming, and how I validate the attachment of seeing myself as helpless in the face of the complexity of my daily life. 
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Thursday, April 4, 2013

Day 319 - My desire for simplicity is really a corporate policy - The Backchat pt2

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For more in-depth context of this series of blog posts, please read day 311

The problem in summary: 

I define a singular focus in my life which I use to justify my tendency to exclude myself from activities that are not linked to potentially making money  - therefore simplifying my life by constraining it to a few time consuming activities that become the pretext for me to avoid dealing with the complexity of life. At the same time believing that this one focus is an enabler for me to excel in one area and secure my place in society. 


The backchat dimension - The reward: 

If and when I allow myself to engage in backchat where I start to feel sorry for myself and my situation, I stop and breathe,

I realise that feeling sorry for myself is to be lazy about finding a solution for my problems. I realise that when I address my problems without energetic charge I can direct them more effectively and I can find solutions that I am blind to when emotionally engaged.

I commit myself to stop all self-pity and look at my problems without emotional charge.

If and when I allow myself to engage in backchat about the choices I have made in my life and how they have brought me to where I am today, I stop and breathe, I realise that regret will not reset my life, that it is useless and I acknowledge that at the time I was not in the position to make choices any other way because I was not facing myself in self-honesty. Therefore I realise that any backchat on the potential of what could have been is useless.

I commit myself to stop all useless mental revision of situations and face myself in the consequences that I have created for myself.

If and when I allow myself to engage in backchat to give myself hope by creating an imagination of a better life in a better setting I realise that I suppress the true situation that I need to face by calming myself with backchat.

I commit myself to stop all hope and keep bringing myself to what is here in the situation. 

If and when I allow myself to engage in backchat where I tell myself that life is too difficult I stop and breathe,

I realise that this backchat about giving up is part of a personality which supports the main intent of dwelling in self-pity and is not real nor relevant to the situation, I therefore take responsibility to stop myself from becoming the self-pity personality.

I commit myself to stop all the diverse character act-outs that are established around the point of “finding a better, less complicated life” - and I deal exclusively with what is here.

If and when I want to compare my life now with my life in the past, or conjure up an ideal life that is disconnected from the interrelationships on earth, I stop and breathe,

I realise that this is my escape mechanism that I validate by believing it, I render myself helpless and inactive because I believe that the gap that exists between what I live now and how I want to live can never be closed and therefore give myself permission to waste my time in self-pity.

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Day 318 - My desire for simplicity is really a corporate policy - The Backchat pt1

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For more in-depth context of this series of blog posts, please read day 311

The problem in summary: 

I define a singular focus in my life which I use to justify my tendency to exclude myself from activities that are not linked to potentially making money  - therefore simplifying my life by constraining it to a few time consuming activities that become the pretext for me to avoid dealing with the complexity of life. At the same time believing that this one focus is an enabler for me to excel in one area and secure my place in society. 

The backchat dimension - The solution:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to complain about my currently life and all the problems that I am facing to justify feeling sorry for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep telling myself that my life would be better if I had made different choices, regarding my move to B., and that I could have chosen a life that is simplistic and natural.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep believing that life can be better if I can only make my imagination come true about living somewhere close to nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep telling myself that this life is way too much at once that I need to get away from it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep telling myself that my ideal life is worthwhile striving for because once I get there I am going to be very effective.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have acknowledge in my backchat the idea that “the grass is always greener on the other side” - and compare my life now to my life in the past, or an ideal hypothetical life style that only exists in my imagination.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep telling myself that I must give up because I am so overwhelmed by what I am facing in my life. 
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Day 317 - My desire for simplicity is really a corporate policy - The Imagination pt2

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For more in-depth context of this series of blog posts, please read day 311

The problem in summary: 

I define a singular focus in my life which I use to justify my tendency to exclude myself from activities that are not linked to potentially making money  - therefore simplifying my life by constraining it to a few time consuming activities that become the pretext for me to avoid dealing with the complexity of life. At the same time believing that this one focus is an enabler for me to excel in one area and secure my place in society. 


The imagination dimension - the reward: 

If and when I go into my imagination to live a life close to nature, I stop and breathe, I realise that through imagining a life elsewhere, all based on my preferences allows me to disengage as participant of the current context of my life.

I commit myself to stop my victimhood, and actively participate in creating a better world for all.

If and when I go into my imagination to live a life close to nature, perfectly constructed in my mind, I stop and breathe, I realise that this desire is to perpetuate the delusion that I can be a winner in a system of mostly losers.

I commit myself to stop my participation within the system from the starting point of hope.

If and when I go into my imagination to live a life close to nature, I stop and breathe, I realise that I feel sorry for myself and the life I lead instead of realising that everywhere in this world suffering, abuse and hardship are present and that believing other wise is to be delusional.

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Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Day 316 - My desire for simplicity is really a corporate policy - The Imagination pt1

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For more in-depth context of this series of blog posts, please read day 311


The problem in summary: 

I define a singular focus in my life which I use to justify my tendency to exclude myself from activities that are not linked to potentially making money  - therefore simplifying my life by constraining it to a few time consuming activities that become the pretext for me to avoid dealing with the complexity of life. At the same time believing that this one focus is an enabler for me to excel in one area and secure my place in society. 



The imagination dimension - the solution:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine to live a life elsewhere, somewhere in nature far away from the hustle and bustle I encounter daily, where I have minimal contact with civilisation and most of my daily living entails nature and animals whereby I romanticise and idylise this kind of environment as the better place to be in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have idealised the life of monks and nuns because of the sheltered existence that is available to these people and the simplicity of living a 'stripped-down' and dedicated life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that I am close to living such a life by re-focussing my priorities and creating new context for my life where I could pursue such an idealised life style.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine a life close to nature in a warm climate which will present less demands on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that a life close to nature allow me to leave the consumer society, where I do not realise that I am the one, along with everyone else, who has created this consumer society.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that I can become what I want to be in an environment that is close to nature, where I can unfold myself in the simplicity of life.


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