Saturday, March 23, 2013

Day 308 - Remembering Numbers Versus Names pt7

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I continue the Physical and Consequence Dimensions from the last post.
Numbers.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get an energy kick out of remembering numbers in the moment where I have the opportunity to remember a number, inside my solar plexus area I experience a boost of energy, quite subtle, and feel excited for a moment about the number and the task of having to remember.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be energetically affected about remembering numbers, just at the moment where i am programming myself to remember, where I suddenly feel light and cheerful within myself.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise as long as I ascertain one side of the polarisation, where I keep attaching myself to the feeling of superiority because I can remember numbers well, and because I allow myself to feel inferior about not remembering names easily, I trap myself where I cycle between both states.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the consequence of feeling superior about being able to remember numbers well is that I keep holding on to the picture I have of myself wherein I compare my skills to another's skills and maintain the illusion of who I believe I am.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that all polarisation serves is to maintain my ego which is the root of my self-interest and self-importance which expands outwards into everyone and everything and creates a world of abuse and suffering.
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Friday, March 22, 2013

Day 307 - Remembering Numbers Versus Names pt6

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Here I continue with the point that I can remember numbers well and names I tend to forget right away. 

Physical and Consequence Dimensions
Names.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the suppression I cause myself by having programmed myself to forget names abuses my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise in the moment when I am trying to remember that I go into my mind and I am not breathing properly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience contracting sensations in my torso when I don't succeed in remembering names.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience my physical body as uncomfortable right before I realise that i am going to be confronted with having to learn and remember someone's name.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the consequence of this program disadvantages me in the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise the consequence of awkward social relations comes down to money because it is through the relationships we establish, we gain entrance to the world of money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that this has contribute to me experiencing myself as inferior.
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Thursday, March 21, 2013

Day 306 - Remembering Numbers Versus Names pt5

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This is a continuation from the previous post.

Backchat Dimension - Numbers

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought
“I really like numbers”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought “numbers never fail me”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought
“I don’t want to lose the skill to remember numbers so well”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought “remembering numbers is handy for pin-codes”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought “I can remember numbers so much better than her/him”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a memory of S who was very good in remembering names and I always wanted to be like her.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define articulation, clarity and excellence in the memory of S who was very good in remembering names and me wanting to be like her.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from articulation, clarity and excellence through defining articulation, clarity and excellence within the memory of S who was very good in remembering names and me wanting to be like her, in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that articulation, clarity and excellence are here as me equal and one in every breath.


Reaction Dimension - Names

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with anger that I don't remember names.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with blame towards the person who is telling me his or her name.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with embarrassment because I was in a situation where I could not remember someone's name.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with frustration because I believe I have no control remembering a person's name.



Reaction Dimension - Numbers

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get a buzzed from remembering numbers.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in excitement about anything that has to do with numbers.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel good about myself when I am able to remember numbers.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with ego, wanting to show off how well I remember numbers.


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Day 305 - Remembering Numbers Versus Names pt4

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In this series that started on day 302, prompted by my dad, I investigate my belief that "I can remember numbers really well, but names escape me". I realised that on the basis of my dad having this belief I copied it and programmed myself to do, to be, the same. In this post I am working through the backchat dimension of both polarities.

Backchat Dimension - Names


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that names are hard and difficult to remember and that too many names are too complicated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to see the name written first and then I will remember it more easily.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought in my mind “oh I don’t remember this person’s name”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought “I wish I could remember names like she/he does”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought “how can I address this person? I’ve got to find out his/her name without him/her noticing it”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought “Omg, I will never remember this name and he/she speaks way too fast”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought “I wish I could ask him/her to repeat that name, but I think it’s too impolite”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought “next time I will read that name very carefully and then I will remember it”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought “I wonder if pronounce her/his name correctly - I would not want to say the wrong way in front of her/his face”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought “people like it when you call them by their name, too bad I mostly don’t remember names of people I have recently met”
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Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Day 304 - Remembering Numbers Versus Names pt3

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I am continuing on this topic, where I release the energy relationship in how I have programmed myself to remember numbers and not remember names.
I continue on the thought and imagination dimension from the perspective of remembering numbers well.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a preference in remembering numbers because I believe it's easy and more useful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to remember numbers and believe that this is a good thing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that with remembering numbers well I cause polarity within me to exist so that I do not remember names.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can make up my lack of remembering names by remembering numbers well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that I have programmed myself in this way because I have taken my father as a roll model.


Thought Dimension.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at a number and to see the number(s) as an image in my mind, instead of accessing the number as what is here through my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to read a number and to have a clear and crisp image appear within my mind where the numbers are bigger and are black on white background.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the sound of numbers in a image.


Imagination Dimension.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine the numbers when I need to recall them, and they appear before my eyes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine the shape of numbers very easily and not image the shape of names.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that numbers are forever stored in my mind and I can retrieve them when I want to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hear the sound of numbers and imagine how they get imprinted in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that numbers are more relevant in my life and thus have created a belief that numbers are superior to letters.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that I have more power when I remember numbers than when I remember names.





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Monday, March 18, 2013

Day 303 - Remembering Numbers Versus Names pt2

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This is a continuation from the previous post, I am now looking at the thought dimension.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in a situation where I am meeting someone the first time and I am hearing their name, have an image pop up of the name or some letters that resemble the name where the name is all fuzzy, and eventually dissolves in the picture.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself 
myself in a situation where I am meeting someone the first time and I am hearing their name, and if the name is difficult will have an image of a black frame come up which erases my recollection of the person's name.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a separation and use the person's name to manifest the separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself
 in a situation where I am meeting someone the first time and I am hearing their name, and have an image of the person's name grow larger and come towards me, whereby i program myself to not be remember the person's name.


Imagination Dimension

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have tried to use techniques in remembering other people's name using my imagination such as seeing the person's name written on their forehead, instead of breathing here in the physical and taking the name in as embodied being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that in the moment when i need to know someone's name, it will come to me all by itself, and in this create a belief to calm myself down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that my hearing was not very good because I cannot remember names well when I have been just introduced to the other, and have therefore believed that I must have a biological defect.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that I will invent the perfect technique which will enable me to remember names of people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that asking someone else repeatedly for their name is impolite, and thus I create a belief which does not allow me to ask someone repeatedly for their name. 
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