This blog is dedicated to a journey of self-investigation. The writings here are considered a "journey to life" because they are the first step in a long process of self-change. A change that can come about through self-honest writing, to look at one's patterns of actions, reactions, emotions, feelings - of the automated thought patterns that continuously flood our minds. The patterns that breed a world in separation where the need to survive overrides all compassion or necessity to understand that we hold the key to creating a better world by changing ourselves. I invite you to read these writings, observe yourself, your reactions, but also see the likeness that meets you here. From this place, when we open up and share the deepest crevices of our minds, we can see, realise and understand that oneness is the foundation of our existence. Yet, to move oneself beyond merely recognising this fact, through writing and living the statements of one's writing, is the journey to life - a journey that stops all our current acceptances and allowances, in how we exist in the world. Then, we can have a realistic starting point to create a world that is best for all - and that is mindless living.
Prior posts of this series can be found here: Day 471 - Motivation and self-will pt1 Day 472 - Motivation and self-will pt2 Fear dimension is dealt with in these posts: Day 473 - Motivation and self-will pt3 Day 474 - Motivation and self-will pt4 followed by Thought dimension: Day 475 - Motivation and self-will pt5 then by Imagination dimension: Day 476 - Motivation and self-will pt6 Day 477 - Motivation and self-will pt7 then Backchat dimension: Day 478 - Motivation and self-will pt8 Day 479 - Motivation and self-will pt9 Day 480 - Motivation and self-will pt10 In this post I will be looking at the Reaction dimension: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to myself with frustration when I am involved in an activity that I consider boring, because I fail to stimulate myself sufficiently to create motivation. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself go into a state of limbo when I am doing activities to which I have a resistance, where I suppress myself and slow down so that the time for the activity takes much longer because I am lost in mind-space. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as comfortable and content when I am involved in an activity that I like to do because then I can look back at my achievement and feel even better about myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the content of the activity the starting point so that I can either feel good or bad about myself depending on whether I like or do not like the activity. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anger, restlessness, and frustration when I am involved in an activity that I consider boring or tedious, and so I keep myself from being able to concentrate on my physical movements because I am stuck in my mind. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that when I am motivated I still have subtle energy shifts going on even though I am not experience a 'motivation high' any longer. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience regret about having spent more time than necessary doing whatever because I was dragging myself along due to resistances. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience the desire to let go of my resistances, yet I insist on my resistances when I am struggling with a boring, tedious activity.