The next dimension to tackle on this point is what I imagine.... I continue from here:
Day 429 - The morning routine pt1
Day 430 - The morning routine pt2
Day 431 - The morning routine pt3- what's a decision got to do with it...?
Day 432 - The morning routine pt4
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that it is going to be difficult for me to get out of my room and face the world outside of my room and that I have to converse and "deal" with my flatmates - and thus I forgive myself for imagining myself moving with very heavy limps and a very slow motion.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that I must backtrack and that I am arriving late and frazzled at work and without my equipment - where I imagine myself running around "headless" and not getting anything done.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that if I am not putting out more effort to connect with my flatmates that this will affect my working environment, where I imagine my flatmates' behaviour towards me having changed.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that my relationship with my flatmates hinges on me, and that I am in the position to stir how the relationship evolves wherein I realise that I imagine a point of control.
Thus I commit myself:
When and as I am about to imagine that it is going to be difficult to get out of my room, I stop and breathe, and move myself - because I realise that I am just following a program and that that is not who I am.
When and as I imagine that my living situation is affecting my performance at work, I stop and breathe, I realise that this is a decision I make and this I make the decision to stop my thoughts.
When and as I have fear that I am being punished by my flatmates because I do not socialise with them, I stop and breathe, I stop any projection how I should interact with my flatmates.
When and as I want to control the relationship I have with my flatmates because I want my flatmates to be alright at home so that we all share a comfortable home, I stop and breathe and stop the desire/need to control the situation.