In this post I continue the series that I started on day 337, where I give background to the problem that I am addressing with self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements.
Summary of the problem:
We all default into negativity. We are unable to see that our lives are a single pursuit from the negative to the positive, in how we want to experience ourselves. We achieve this in all kinds of ways, not at last through education and consumerism. Negativity makes us untrustworthy creatures that abuse life and the living by virtually ignoring what goes on around us as long as we can escape from it and experience ourselves positively - and for that no price is too high. How do we change that? Through self-honesty and self-investigation.
The fear dimension continued - The solution
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that negativity is a better state to be than positivity because I have mixed up critical thinking with negativity, thinking that my ability to criticise is the mark of an intellectual not realising that I fear not having the backchat of my critical thinking to occupy me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge everything around me as negative and when I do judge something as positive it is only positive as long as it serves my self-interest and if it does not serve me anymore it rapidly declines into negativity to protect me from my fear of having to face myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use negativity to justify always looking out for myself through competing with others because I fear being alone with my negativity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a negative disposition towards life which I use to justify not caring about anyone else but me because I fear having to give up negativity to become self-responsible.