Friday, December 28, 2012

Day 229, 2012 Civic pride, or how to conduct myself in shared public or semi-public spaces 5

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Commitment statements for the Backchat and Reaction Dimension

If and when I have backchat about the neighbours and the owner of the house about their carelessness regarding the common space, I stop and breathe, I realise that I can stop myself from backchatting and making constructive suggestion about the problem. I commit myself to look for a solution that I can communicate to my neighbours and landlord and stop all backchat on this point.

If and when I have backchat about the way the trash collection is handled in the city, I stop and breathe, and realise that I am not informed about the details of the trash collection, and that I can inquire and make suggestions for a change. However, in first place, it's about me taking responsibility for my backchat and either invest myself to find out more/make suggestion or leave the topic alone and stop any and all self-righteous behaviour on this point.

If and when I have backchat about society being disposable, I stop myself and breathe - I realise I am the society that I am blaming. I look at my behaviour in the first place and look at what I need to change to stop that which I point fingers to. I commit myself to investigate my "disposable behaviour" towards the environment and the excuses I make for doing so.

If and when I have backchat about people only caring about stuff they own I first stop my backchat and breathe, and in the second instance I investigate my relationship to the things I own and the things I don't own - I commit myself to stop all neglect in relation to the differentiation between the things I own and things I don't and within that I learn to treat things equally no matter who owns them.

If and when I have backchat about there being nowhere to go, where I can identify myself with the level of civic pride I wish to experience regarding the environment and infrastructure, I stop myself and breathe and realise that walking this process towards an equal money system is exactly what is needed to create an environment that is best for all. I commit myself to the creation of an equal money system.

If and when I have backchat about humans spending too much time in the virtual world and not enough time in the physical world, I bring this point back to self and start to better balance the two worlds - I stop all backchat and breathe. I commit myself to honour both worlds equally.

If and when I have backchat about humans caring about society only if it's for profit I look at my own life and realise where I am motivated by reward or compensation and do not apply myself out of principle. I commit myself to stop my backchat and breathe.

Reaction

If and when I feel compelled to act make a situation "right" e.g. picking up bottles, I stop myself and breathe and assess the situation from the starting point of what is best for all. I commit myself to stop cleaning up after others as automated behaviour.

If and when I react in anger to another's trash/carelessness infringe on my living space, I stop and breathe and look at the solution in common sense. I commit myself to stop all anger and do what needs to be done to create a situation that is best for all, including myself.

If and when I suppress myself I stop and breathe and focus on presenting a solution to the problem. I commit myself to stop all fear and act in common sense.

If and when I react from a place of self-righteousness I stop and breathe. I realise that this is feeding my ego which I am committing myself to stop. 
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Thursday, December 27, 2012

Day 228, 2012 Civic pride, or how to conduct myself in shared public or semi-public spaces 4

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I continue on this topic which I started on day 225. Here comes the backchat and reaction dimension.


 Backchat

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have backchat about my neighbours and the owners of the house because I perceive them as not caring about the environment, or even taking their responsibility as citizens seriously.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have backchat about how the city takes care of everyone's trash and that this is badly organised.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have backchat about us having created the "disposable" society where plastic packaging reigns our daily life and useless trinkets that are made in china fill up the lands.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have backchat about people not caring what their city looks like because it's all about ownership and only when one owns any 'thing' then it has importance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have backchat about there being nowhere where I can identify myself with the surroundings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have backchat about the hailing of our virtual world and the neglect of our physical world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have backchat about us decorating the environment for special occasions such christmas as long as money can be made.



Reaction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react by wanting to straighten out the situation through applying myself towards a cleaner environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react by getting angry towards others who do not act in a similar manner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger when other's trash infringes on my living space.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react by suppressing myself instead of gentle speak up how to improve the conditions of my surroundings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react by "doing it myself" in the belief that it will improve the situation.


Next up self-commitment statements 
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Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Day 227, 2012 Civic pride, or how to conduct myself in shared public or semi-public spaces 3

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Here comes the thought and imagination dimensions in relations to the situation that was detailed on day 225.

Thoughts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought of being inundated by objects, things and trash and can't get away from it. 

If and when I get overwhelmed by stuff in the world, I stop and bring myself here, I realise that this fear is tied to my survival in the world which is dependent on having the necessary objects that ensure me being fed, clothed, and having shelter. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought of objects, things, and trash being more than me.

If and when I have this thought, I stop and breathe, and realise that I can stop consumption and change myself so that I become one and equal to all that is living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought of not needing any object, tool, or thing, and suddenly being free from all the "needs" to have stuff.

If and when I want to be free, I realise that freedom is when the world is best for all and no living creature exists outside of equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought about how cumbersome it is to move around in this world because we always need to lug stuff around with us. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought of stress when dealing with "getting objects" essentially "shopping" for stuff that I need for some task.

If and when I fear moving again or am in the need to get stuff, I stop and realise that I can change the manner in how I move around in the world, and within that can stop any stress behaviour. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought about the amount of plastic wrapping circulates in the world and that some day the reality of it will hit us all equally. 

If and when I wish for people to wake up from the abuse on earth, I realise that I am the one who has to wake up and take responsibility to change the world by changing myself - I realise that this change must be a fundamental change of stopping my mind and is not about stopping to participate with the use of plastic.

Imagination:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that one day the world will be completely dense with stuff and people and that living on planet earth will be unbearable. 

If and when I predict doomsday  I realise that this is my fear of not changing myself. I stop and breathe and bring myself here. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that someday we dump all ownership and truly share stuff that is needed.

If and when I wish for the system to change I realise that I must apply myself steadily to change myself. I stop and breathe and bring myself here. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an imagination of an object or tool duplicating infinitely - just as we are doing already with the over production of products that are found in every household. 

If and when I start to contemplate the reality of our world, I realise that I am trying to grasp this reality from a negative polarisation - a mental state - which I do so to justify my separation from it. I stop and breathe and bring myself here. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that life would be better in a world where we make things from perishable materials.

If and when I wish for objects in the world to disappear I realise that I want my fears to disappear. I stop and breathe and bring myself here. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that we take pride in sharing and maintaining what we share always to the highest standard.

If and when I wish that all people were orderly like me, I stop and breathe and realise that it's my fear of not being in control. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that once we are free of feelings and emotions all stuff, objects and things that are kept for memory sake - will be gone. 

If and when I wish to be free from attachment to stuff I realise that I can look at my attachment in self-honesty and let it go. I breathe and bring myself here. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that one day I can finalise how much stuff I have to put up with in my world. 

If and when want to be done with collecting and maintaining my stuff, I realise that I fear not having time for things that I like to do - because I do not accept that objects, things and stuff are always part of life on earth - I stop and breathe and accept this fact without emotional charge. 
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Day 226, 2012 Civic pride, or how to conduct myself in shared public or semi-public spaces 2

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This post continues on the fear dimension from the previous post - here I am presenting the self-commitment statements.

If and when I believe that I am responsible for other’s trash and no one will clean up if I don’t, I realise that I am perpetuating beliefs from my mother and I enact them to make myself feel useful.
I stop and breathe and focus on my true responsibility in changing myself to an equal through self-honesty and breathing.

If and when I see that it is necessary to mention to the owner a condition related to the house, e.g. the hallway, I do so when I have the opportunity without making it a big deal, I basically just state what is already obvious. I realise that I need to convey the information in the most appropriate manner to avoid misconceptions.

If and when I go onto automatic pilot and clean up I stop myself and realise that I accept this as a belief. I realise that I can stop and breathe and observe myself and my reactions, so that I can go deeper into understanding what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as.

If and when I fear that I am turning into everyone’s mom, I realise that I have defined “mom behaviour” as someone who cleans up after others. I stop myself cleaning up after my neighbours but rather come up with an idea to fix this problem, and suggest it to the neighbours.

If and when I fear that I am a control freak because I pick up trash in the street, I stop picking up trash and observe what happens. I breathe and stand equal to the trash.

If and when I fear that I just want the picture that I see to be pleasing, I stop and breathe and I investigate what it is that I am in denial about when I see trash.

If and when I fear behaving in a stereotypical manner, I stop myself and breathe and look at the practicality of what I do and assess the situation from the starting point of equality and oneness. I stop all fears and breathe.

If and when I limit myself in how I live my life because I do not want to deal with the physical reality, I stop and breathe and investigate what I am in denial about regarding the point of accumulation.

If and when I worry about having too much stuff I realise it’s all about me not liking to clean or maintain stuff. I breathe and investigate the beliefs I have as to why I don’t like cleaning/maintaining.

If and when I believe that making order takes too much time I stop and breathe and look at how I effective I am in my time management.

If and when I fear that I am self-righteous about picking up other people’s trash, I realise that this is a matter of starting point - I look at my starting point in self-honesty, and stand one and equal to the act. 
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Sunday, December 23, 2012

Day 225, 2012 Civic pride, or how to conduct myself in shared public or semi-public spaces 1

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I have mostly made the assumption that I need to extend my sense of order, or cleanliness, beyond my apartment into the shared hallways of the house I live in, as well as the immediate surroundings of the house just beyond the entrance. I recall my parents once telling me earnestly that in Germany there is a law that when it snows, the side walk that covers the width of the house must be cleared of snow, and if it's not then in case of an accident, a lawsuit can be filed and won by that person.

Besides this sort of undirected understanding of where my civic duties lie, I also understood from my upbringing that I can take civic pride in making sure that the environment is considered and taken care of. For me this has often translated to picking up bottles in forested streets which were left behind by some party animals, or just randomly picking up wrappers that others have dropped and that landed in my way. It's the kind of attitude that I have to do what I can, when it just so happens.

I noticed though in a specific situation, having to do with the hallway of the house I have recently moved to, I had built up some backchat: There has been a missing concierge because the owners of the house are too cheap to have someone take care of the shared space, such as the hallway. This is clearly not in their favour because two of the four flats have been vacant - in a city where there seems to be no shortage of flats. When I reacted to a gesture by someone showing the apartments to potential renters and trying to hide this fact by stuffing the mail from previous renters onto the rack of my cycle, I realised that I have never dealt with this point in self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I don't clean up other's trash then no one will do so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking up to the owner of the house and suggesting to him that not having someone take care of the hallway is backfiring in attracting longterm renters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not knowing how much I should care about the environment - and that I have programmed myself to automatically clean up because I am female.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I am turning into everybody's mom because I am the one who just cleans up when no one else does.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I am a control freak when I pickup trash in the street.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I am just catering to my aesthetic sense when I pick up other people's trash because I prefer the picture I see without trash.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that this sense of civic pride is a typical cultural attribute that I have programmed myself with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a memory of a belief come up where I 'think' that my life is better when I don't accumulate too many things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that having too many belongings will entail even more cleaning up, maintaining, and moving stuff around.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making order takes too much time away from other activities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that picking up other people's trash is a self-righteous act.

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