Saturday, August 11, 2012

Day 114, 2012 The 'WTF' character: education and corporations

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When I watched the video called “Which CEO made $5 million stealing your kid’s lunch money?" I had a strong reaction because I have now seen a few videos like this one, and have also lived through the re-organisation of a department at a big university, where the university was turned into a business pushing many academics out and creating incentives for overseas students because they pay a much higher fee than local students. What I reacted to is the inevitable development of the educational system where children are increasingly corporatised, and the age from which this process starts is increasingly younger. 

This phenomenon of universities/schools selling out to become businesses where students are clients who ‘buy’ education is not justifying the old system of education, being mostly government, or privately funded, as the better or a more worthwhile system. What this exemplifies to me is that increasingly opportunities for education are reduced, only to be attainable for the rich and who isn’t rich can’t participate in the educational game to the extend that their chances to have the skills to survive in the world as adults is slowly but surely eliminated.  

In addition, corporate education is purely based on money and performance, it therefore circumvents teachers and creates lots of virtual interaction of students with machines. This is not to say that digital technologies are not useful in education, they can be extremely useful but in this context they are used to abuse.  

This means that children who are not able to participate in the educational system will have fewer and fewer tools at their disposal, to understand what is happening in the world, and even to be able to reflect on themselves in what they are accepting and allowing. It will persistently increase the group of marginalised adults throughout the world, and surely a more abusive world than what it already is. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to point fingers in blame to corporation for what is currently happening globally to education.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and belief that what is happening now to education is unexpected, not realising that when looking at the bigger picture of the global financial system, this is the consequence of what I have allowed and accepted the world to be. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself outraged about the educational developments when I recall that my own early education as it was imprinted by the predominate political players in the country I lived in, which is comparable to how corporate society is exploiting and imprinting today’s schools and universities. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that I really care about children and their education but have never seen it necessary to change myself to change the world, as I have never seen my participation in this world as ‘significant’ and thus have justified not taking responsibility. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have never investigated what an alternative approach to education would look like, and thus would have focussed on the solution, instead of experiencing myself ‘up in arms’, yet I did not because I am afraid to admit to myself that essentially education has to be completely changed through changing the financial system. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have reacted emotionally to the developments in the educational system because I believe that children are innocent and that they need to be protected instead of realising the recycling nature of nature where humans are included, and that no being/life form is an island regardless of its physical age, as all have brought about this world together. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as superior to children, because I believe that they need my help never considering that maybe I need the help of children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have, as all have, who are involved in education created a ‘teaching’ character who operates on knowledge and not as life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have realised the connection between abused children and abusive adults, and that only if the abuse is stopped and children are taught to live a life that is best for all will humanity ever ‘produce’ adults that truly care about planet earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to promote nothing but self-interest in schools and education and use and abuse knowledge as the vehicle to do so. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have experienced myself as the “I give up” character because whenever I had the opportunity to influence the educational system ‘ever so slightly’, I chose not to bother because I knew it was not possible to make a big leap, and have thus acted as the “I give up” character instead of standing one and equal to my involvement with the system. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have gotten involved with education when I was able to lay down my professional tracks because I cared only about my self-interest regarding my preferences of research topics, rather than getting involved with what is necessary to be addressed directly within the educational system.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have equally participated in corrupting children as a 'market segment' by participating in this system, and never taking responsibility for standing up as self but conveniently raising my voice for a two -minute outrage and then to go back to my ways after I was done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have often considered that I would not want to be child in the world today, because of the proliferation of abuse and 'use' of children in all facets of life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reduce the problem of education to the ‘WTF’ character. 

I commit myself to move myself to change myself so that I can stand as point of change and support all who are supporting themselves in bringing about a new financial system which is based on the principles of equality and what is best for all, and is the very foundation for the creation of an educational system that teaches from the starting point of the value of life. 

I commit myself to stand equal to the WTF character so that I can stop it because I realise that outrage and anger are part of the justification not to take responsibility for this world.

I commit myself to stop being the polarisation between children and adults and learn to be an equal to children, where I stop judging others based on their learned skill, whereby I realise that learned skills such as language and mathematics are the ingredients of the continual cycle of self-interest that is recreated with each generation, and are not skills supportive of life. 

I commit myself to understand and accept that I am equally responsible in the corporatisation of schools and universities, and that a change to this system starts with me walking my process. 

I commit myself to stop the “I give up” character and realise that accepting the system as me is the starting point for change. 

I commit myself to walk myself out of my mind so that I can be part of the change of the world and the end of self-interest as the world.

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Thursday, August 9, 2012

Day 113, 2012 The 'good' character: education and money

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the good character by trying hard to get good grades in school and to impress my parents, to gain their attention and recognition.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have spend a lot of my time studying, always climbing a step higher than before, entering new ‘intellectual’ territory that was often far out of my reach because I did not have the fundamentals, and so I struggled and worked harder and harder because I believed that when I work this hard than I am going to become a good person and have value in society.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to study because I feared disappointing my parents, and I feared not being a good person. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have associated being a good person with being an educated person. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the pursuit of an ‘intellectual’ status is a good thing in this world, and to strive for this status is spending my time in a 'worthwhile' manner. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that not money but education makes me a good person in this world, and thus have dismissed and denied myself to make good money because I wanted to be a good person in this world. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that I have believed that money is associated with power and power is associated with ruthlessness, and thus can never be an attribute of the good character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people with a lot of money are inherently bad people, not realising that losers are jealous of winners and that this is how the money game is played by all - through competition and comparison.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trade money for being a good person and thus have set myself up to be on the losing end so that I could strive harder to become better - eventually one day to be a good person and to be rewarded for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that good people are rewarded in life, not realising that this is a religious statement, which means that I am not responsible for what happens in the world as long as I am a good person. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a romantic idea of "the good character", a picture of the bohemian with lots of great ideas and empty pockets but a solid and good person, always doing the right thing at the right time. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that money is evil - deep down inside of me - and that I have sabotaged myself to not hold onto money, or have denied myself to make lots of money when I had the opportunity because I believed that positions that make lots of money require evil and cunning people to play the game. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not cunning enough to play the game of lots of money, not realising that if I had a lot of money I can support those who are standing up in life to change themselves and change the world. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have believed that ambition is an attribute of being a good character, and that one can never have too much ambition, not realising that ambition is the fear of loss and survival - and that ambition is driven by a deep anxiety to face oneself, because through ambition one’s focus is always externally directed on the next project, the next thing to learn, and the next hurdle to pass. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have abused and sacrificed my physical body in pursuit of my ambition. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that through my studies I can change the world never realising that this entails changing myself first, and by believing that I can change the world through education I never realised that this predicates the assumption that I am already better than anyone else because I believe that I have the 'tools' and 'power' to execute this change. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have disappointed my parents because education does not ‘equal’ money, and I have not made the amounts of money that I believe my parents expect me to make.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek value in my studies to create a good character who gets a parental pad on her shoulder. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have realised that I worked so hard in my studies because I had programmed myself from early age to please my mother, who values status and class, and I wanted to be that for her.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have never question how ‘working really hard’ is connected with ‘being a good character’. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have desired my parents' praise, because that meant that they thought of me as a good person. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide ‘me’ from my parents because I believe that they would never accept what I do in my ‘other’ life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that in my ‘other’ life I am not a good person. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have desired to make my parents proud because I believed what my relatives told me: "a good child makes her parents proud".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be annoyed by the superficial relationship with my parents, yet I did not want this to change because I feared their that they would think of me as a bad person if they would know more about me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I don’t bother my parents by asking question than I am a good person because I noticed that asking questions was making my parents uncomfortable and often angry - so I used asking questions if I wanted to provoke my parents, or if I wanted to revenge myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to shut myself up because I knew that my parents liked for me to be quiet, and thus I have programmed myself to shut up most of the time, "to not make any waves" that could bother someone somewhere. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have programmed myself to want to do the right thing, the good thing -  the thing of charity because then I could feel better about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that doing the right thing is the deferred pad on my shoulder I want to give myself as I have programmed myself, according to how I received it from my parents. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have been in competition with my brother and wanted to do be all the things that he was not, to be the ‘gelungene’ child in the eyes of my parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself by having programmed myself to participate in activities that are supportive of my various characters and not of myself as Self where I could just ‘be’ not doing to 'do' - just to be of life, here in this moment. 

I commit myself to stop executing the program of the ‘good’ character. 

I commit myself to stop abusing education so that I can feel better about myself. 

I commit myself to stop looking for value in education and realising that the current educational system does not value life, and that it enslaves us into 'characters of performance' where we create and recreate abuse, competition, and judgement in the world. 

I commit myself to stop portraying myself as the good kid to my parents and realise at the same time that I can be gentle in breaking the mutual pattern with my parents. 

I commit myself to stop hiding myself from my parents and anyone else and express myself without judging myself, or judging other's reactions to my self-expression. 

I commit myself to be radical in myself expression, not to neglect my duties and commitments but to ensure that I allow myself to express myself freely without any objective or goal but just as me here in the physical.

I commit myself to start living as a whole and not as a ‘split’ person where I hide and cover up part of myself because I fear being judged as bad - and I do so in common sense, within the current system. 

I commit myself to apply myself in eradicating my ego, and all connections with education and status, and education and money. 

I commit myself to eradicate all conceptions of money, including that 'having money is bad' and 'having little money is good'. 

I commit myself to show others that the good character originates from fear. 
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Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Day 112, 2012 The 'Hope-Believer' character: hope as an obstacle to love

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that hope will solve my problems even though I know that hope can’t do shit in this world - and so I have stood by and have done nothing to make this world a better place for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have lived in the dichotomy of experiencing myself in self-pity and negativity and, at the same time, positivity and excitement because I hope for something to happen that saves me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lull myself into hope and deny that I am secretly hoping, but have refused to look at my actions and to measure myself realistically in what I do in the world, and see whether or not I was deluding myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the cycle is always the same where I, once I wake up from being asleep in hope, have a sense of urgency and want to make up for what I have missed, fearing that I have missed many opportunities in my life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret missing opportunities in my life instead using my newly gained understanding as pointers to act in the physical world, and rectify myself so that I move the point which led to the missed opportunity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use and abuse hope to continue to exist in fear. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that love, the act of love - is in first place the act of love towards myself by recognising that I am a physical being - not a mental being - and that me as a physical being is the total physicality of all of existence, which includes all beings and biological materials - in fact all that is here - and that if I recognise myself as loving physicality, I recognise all else as me and thus to take care of me is to take care of all that is here in physical self-movement. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have realised that the act of love is a physical movement from a physical being to bring all physicality to the same equal point and that only through physical engagement can this become so - not realising that all hope is the destruction of physicality because hope is inertia, inactivity - it is inconclusive, and by being a non-participant through hoping I am the active component of destruction and abuse in this world. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into a single thought of hope because I believed that the comfort hope presents to me is real, not realising that this is what we live daily when we try to create comfort through consumerism - where the world we have created through this consumerism is now consuming itself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use negativity to slow myself down in physical participation - not in breathing here but in acting here -  whereby I realise that only through holding onto hope I am able to justify my negativity instead of looking at who I am in every moment of my life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a memory within me of my father telling me: surely, it will all work out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the memory of my father telling me: surely, it will all work out. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define confidence, hope, and expectation, within the memory of my father telling me: surely, it will all work out. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from confidence, expectation, and hope, through defining confidence, expectation, and hope within the memory of my father telling me: surely, it will all work out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that confidence, hope and expectation is here as me in every breath equal and one. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have coined phrases that express and glorify inertia and inactivity such as “we’ll wait and see”, “good luck”, “what can go wrong”, “once in a while you have to take a risk”, “I do what I can...”, “gosh, I have tried so hard...”, “just keep a positive attitude to pull you through” "tomorrow is another day..."- and not realise that all of these phrases are based on hope and not love (as laid out above). 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that all political parties are the physical evidence of hope because so many people stuck inertia and inactivity have through their non-participation created a world that is continuously spiralling downward into oblivion - showing us that hope exists in our individual lives and collectively and that relying on hope creates havoc in the world. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that when I was a light worker I dismissed anyone who would question hope therefore not giving my Self the opportunity to investigate my beliefs even when others supported me by questioning: what can hope do for the world? 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny my Self not doing what needs to be done, instead of denying that hope is real, even though I know that only by doing I harvest results in the physical world. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that hope is a companion of future projection, and even though I have lived long enough to know for fact that the future never works out as I anticipate it, I still ascertain hopeful thought. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself with hope, and creating cycles of time loops - not realising to love myself is to love all that is here equally and thus this means I move myself in this world without thought. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse others by giving them hope, instead of communicating as clear as I know the issue to be. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that my relationships will last, or that my relationships function instead of acting from the starting point of creating a physical communality between the people/ my relations, so that I do not have to sail in the 'ship of hope' and wonder why it sinks in the end. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that I can close the separation of myself with other people by showing in clear physical terms, through my action that I live my life in the physical, and that I understand what it means to be and act as one. 

I commit myself to stop all hope and future projection. 

I commit myself to focus soley on my actions in the world and measure myself - not from evaluation - in my effective participation in the world through looking at my daily achievements and by the moving forward of points, and tenaciously continuing to work on a point until that point has been transformed to no longer be a point - only then I move on. 

I commit myself to purify my language and end all statements of hope, uttered or in thought, and when I realise that I automatically create hope statements I stop myself, breathe, and speak self-forgiveness and continue to walk - until I have eradicated all hope from my life. 

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Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Day 111, My speed freak character: this is too slow for comfort

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have never realised that I fear slowing myself down by breathing in awareness because I fear loss of the world around me, in that I fear being left behind by the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have made fun of all that is slow - because I feared slowness as I did not understand why it is here. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have realised that I fear slowing myself down because then I would see who I really am, and would be faced with myself - and thus it is safer to speed up and race around in my mind as in the world, because then I do not have to deal with myself, my internal world, but could focus on all that is external. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear seeing who I am because I am not accepting myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself, and have therefore done what I can to hide myself from myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself because I fear that when I am faced with who I am, I realise that I cannot continue as I am, and thus I fear changing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don’t know how I created myself, and where I can change myself to become equal and one, because I fear facing myself by slowing myself down. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create all kinds of ideas around time and the length of time - and even perceive time as having to wait for something, instead of just being here as I am being alive. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separated myself from time and therefore separated myself from my breath because breath is the unit of time as I can live it on earth. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have all kinds of excuses and backchat coming up when I want to slow myself down:
“I don’t have time to slow myself down, I am struggling with time as it is”
“Slowing myself down is like multi-tasking, I was never very good at it”
“I can see who I am, I don’t need to go any slower than this”
“I don’t know what they mean by slowing myself down”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe any thought that comes up in relation to slowing myself down, instead stopping the belief and focussing on breath in awareness. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to divert myself when I am set to slow myself down, instead of not accepting any diversions by patiently bringing myself back to be here, until the diversion subside. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I am slowing myself down I will miss something of importance that is happening in my world. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I am slowing myself down I am not as effective in my performance in the world. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that slowing myself down will disturb my communications with others because I fear others will not understand what is going on with me and reject me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear slowing down because then my self-forgiveness flows as I write from Self, which will bring about a change of who I am. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear accepting myself by slowing myself down. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear slowing myself down because I then see what I accept and allow to exist in the world. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear slowing myself down because I fear being bored without the entertainment of my mind. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to my mind and thus I fear slowing down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear slowing down because then I am directing myself instead of my mind directing me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have understand that patience and slowness in the world is not accepted, as we only use the idea of patience, to entice ourselves with self-improvement, never actually wanting to better ourselves because we construct a world in competition which is the anthesis to slowing oneself down because to compete we need to speed up to get wherever we think we are going before anyone else. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that slowing myself down is ‘speeding’ myself up because when I am self-directive I am more effective with my time and more effective in having a handle on things in my life.

I commit myself to slowing myself down through my breath,  guided by my breath, in and as my breath.

I commit myself to accept what I see as me when I see me as I slow down, and in that I accept myself to realise that I can change myself to be one and equal with all that is here. 

I commit myself to bring patience into the world as real practical application by slowing myself down as in the moment-by-moment application, and by standing in and as my breath in all my interactions with others. 

I commit myself to layout for others how slowing myself down in breath creates insight into myself and enables me to change myself, by becoming the living example. 

I commit myself to teach children to slow down in breath and to breathe in awareness. 

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Day 110, 2012 The 'security-seeking' character: how we exist in fear of the future

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future and therefore seek to find security in compromising myself as Self by separating myself from what is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe if others do not value me then my future survival is endangered and thus I fear others. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have expectations about the future and therefore prepare myself to be ready as I always - secretly - expect the worst to happen. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a memory of my parents telling me to always be prepared for the future because no one knows what it going to happen in the future, and one needs to anticipate it with preparations. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto a memory of my parents telling me to always be prepared for the future because no one knows what is going to happen in the future, and one needs to anticipate it with preparations. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define danger, loss, suffering and hardship within the memory of my parents telling me to always be prepared for the future because no one knows what is going to happen in the future, and one needs to anticipate it with preparations. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from danger, loss, suffering and hardship through defining danger, loss, suffering and hardship within the memory of my parents telling me to always be prepared for the future because no one knows what is going to happen in the future and one needs to anticipate it with preparation, in separation of myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that danger, loss, suffering and hardship are here as me in every breath, equal and one. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and judge preparations I make for the future - the anticipation of lack and loss in the future -as positive/good/right, not realising that I am determining the future in my participation with the system that I have created as member of the group called humanity. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to teach others that we are victims of the future because the future is unknown and we cannot take responsibility for that which is unknown - and thereby passing on my ignorance to others by programming others with the belief that the future is unchangeable. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to promote faith and hope to cover up the collective fear of the future, to suppress making the level of abuse we face daily visible for all to recognise, so that all continue to fear the future instead of taking responsibility for the current system so that we can change it to be a system that is best for all where all are taken care of in the future.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ownership and property will secure my future. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that hoarding objects, food, and tools will secure my future. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that accumulating wealth for myself will secure my future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future and therefore I must take from others what I can - and take as much as I can, more than my share- to make sure that I survive and have what I need, regardless of how it affects other beings in the world and all of existence. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future because I have created an economic system that is based on fear of survival. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have enslaved all existence because I created an economic system of survival, where all that is in existence is abused and misused in the name of survival. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have taught children that they must fear the future because the future cannot guarantee their survival. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use competition in the struggle for survival so that all fear to be losers because only few can be winners. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that consumerism is a diversion from seeing the abuse and destruction of this economic system, and to keep us in enslaved through addictions to experiences in all forms of media, objects, things, and tools.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise if I take responsibility for all beings I can create a system where there is no fear of the future because are all taken care of equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that I create attachment to things, beings and places because I believe that attachment is a form of security. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have many times confirmed to myself that the future is unsafe when I had to fall back onto my reserves/objects/collections/savings and this confirmed my fear of the future. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear death because fearing my future is to fear surviving thus - I fear the end of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that believing the thought of “my mind will end” is creating fear within me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself by fearing the death of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others because I fear myself and others as myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others because I fear the death of my mind through others. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have realised that I can end my fears  - all of my fears - if I stop fearing myself and fearing the death of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that I separate myself from my mind and in this separation I allow the death of my mind to exist. 

I commit myself to end my fear of the future by realising and walking in all detail the specifics of fearing the death of my mind. 

I commit myself to take responsibility for my fears by stopping my fears and stopping my fearful behaviours of anticipating the worst case scenarios in the future, which lead me to all kinds of actions in the physical in form of safety mechanisms: to accumulate objects, food, tools, and memorabilia. 

I commit myself to stop addiction to hoarding and ownership because I fear loss and fear not being able to survive in the future. 

I commit myself to act in common sense regarding all that concerns saving and ownership and focus on becoming equal with all that is here so that I am in the position to bring about the equal money system. 
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