This is the final post in this series. The basic premise of the situation starts with day 195. In this post I apply self-forgiveness to the physical dimension as well as the consequences.
unsettled, my body is agitated
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as unsettled and agitated - as my physical body gives me feedback when I experience myself as uncomfortable in social networking situations.
I commit myself to stop myself in regards to this situation by doing the following: when and if I am in a social networking situation where I am feeling uncomfortable and agitated I bring myself here in awareness and breathe in awareness as I am engaging with others. I do this repeatedly until it's done.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to laugh nervously because I try to cover up that I feel uncomfortable in the present social situation.
I commit myself to stop myself from laughing nervously by breathing here in awareness and realise that these are automated behaviour mechanisms that I have allowed and accepted are my responsibility to stop.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself breathing irregularly because I am in a social situations where I allow my mind to interfere with me being in awareness.
I commit myself to stop placing my awareness outside of myself by attending to my breath in awareness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself on edge because I am in a social situation where I allow automated thought to interfere with my communication.
I commit myself to stop and not allow myself to go into agitation or this "on edge" existence by simply relaxing using the awareness of my breath.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the consequence of not being here in social networking situation is that I am unaware of what is happening around me, and that I cannot cease the moment to direct my conversations and also choose my conversation partners in regards to my networking endeavour because I am preoccupied by my mind.
I commit myself to stop all fears related to interacting with others - and live the understanding that only in awareness I can actually see what is happening in a situation and maximise the situation so that I direct it to a place that is best for all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that if and when I do not stop the fears I have of others, then I am not able to benefit from a networking event because I am caught up in my mind, and this will be reflected in the result.
I commit myself to work on stopping my fears when talking to others because I realise that the results are always in relation to my fear as I produce the cause and the effect.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that if I do not stop my fears when networking with others that it will not propel me into the higher echelon in my professional environment - and this is tied to money and influence.
I commit myself stop my fears because I realise that all life will benefit when I do what is best for all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that these types of environments are a testing ground for me to give myself feedback about any fears that come up when I relate to others.
I commit myself to actively participate in environments where I encounter my fears so that I give myself the opportunity to release them.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that to get to know myself - as the mind - I can get to know myself through another as I reflect myself within another.
I commit myself to stop seeing myself as separate and work on this point step-by-step and breath-by-breath until it's done.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that relationships with others are essential, and that fearing others reveals that I fear myself and that I do not want to look at myself, which will always cause repercussions in my life - most of all economic ones.
I commit myself to no longer allow my fears to dictate my economic situation.